Day 11 The Consequences of Writing
So, an interesting point about writing came up the other day while working on one of my Desteni I Process Lite assignments.
So I’m sure most of you have heard many times how writing is so important, and writing is a gift you give to yourself to see yourself, and writing allows you to put yourself down in front of yourself to actually see yourself.
I simply couldn’t see this…I realize now that I was writing simply about a realization, rather than about an emotion or reaction or situation where there were clearly issues for me to look at or look into. Those moments where you know you aren’t quite responding and/or moving in a way you know/wish you could. The diamonds are in these moments…
So, I had been struggling with writing for some time, and after doing routine writing exercises on DIP Lite I realized I started to let my guard down and didn’t even know it… I found myself writing more openly and writing to really express what’s going on inside myself and as I did that an interesting thing happened.
I found myself writing about a strong emotion that was triggered when driving by a place I linked to Past Memories… (I was starting to dig where the diamonds are)… I wanted to understand how I could have got to this state of such overwhelming emotion. The more I wrote out about the emotion, what triggered it, and what it was linked to, I started to see in my writing that there was a clear issue with how I perceived myself… And here is the part I found really interesting… I was staring at my writing in pure confusion because if anyone were to ask me if I perceived myself in this specific way I would tell them straight up, NO… But I’m staring at the writing, and I literally just wrote out in front of me that I clearly do perceive myself this way to some degree or another… and it’s actually under the surface of how I actually act, and because I act this certain way to cover up the true underlying perception of myself, I would tell anyone straight up “I Don’t perceive myself like that at all!”
So I was finally able to truly see myself written out in front of myself to see something I did not know was there and that was really there the whole time.
And I’m sure it’s no guess to those who have followed my blog that the perception of self is of self-doubt/not feeling good enough and the cover up is of course the superiority/ego and being so focused and so “in control”
While I may have expressed this link between self-doubt and superiority in the past, I have never seen it so clearly and seen the links I made with these two emotions to people and things as clearly… There is something powerful in writing about a moment and seeing the layers unfold before you.
For anyone struggling at all I really do recommend doing the DIP Lite (http://lite.desteniiprocess.com) to help you get into a routine of writing, and to get a little better understanding of what emotions and feelings are.